How dare you

I will show you

My unspoken words

 

I will touch your soul

One look is all i need

 

Ignoring my pain

Hating on my loving

 

Walking away

Despite it all

 

I care

Enough to ignore the pain

 

How can i trust you with my emotions

When you constantly give and take your love?

 

The only thing that’s constant is your insecurities

The revenge that you throw on me

 

No mistakes admitted

It ain’t real

 

This ain’t love

Time to go

 

Restless

What to do?

How do I get rid of this feeling?

Lady Dalyz Jennifer Alvarez

looking at you 

 
My soul can’t breath,
I’m trapped in my own brain.
 
Search,
Feel,
Run.
 
Go back,
Analize,
Evaluate.
 
How to act?
How do I help myself?
 
My mind can’t rest,
My body is shaken.
 
Think,
Trust,
Allow.
 
Release,
Forgive,
Survive.

Beware for Growth

Lady dalyz Jennifer Alvarez

Ph. Cherry Kaur

Rhymes,
that disappear like lies.

In your eyes,
My reflection.

The evaluation,
A heart to heart.

What’s on your mind?

Scars,
Hurtful marks.

Shinning stars,
From a distant past.

I see it.
I feel it.
But that’s not real any more.

Encore.

Have

dog Lady Dalyz Ph

Gabber

Life…vibrant.

flowing, echoing.

 

Inside.

The rush, my heart.

 

Air.

Freeing my words.

Accidentes y vidas

Te vi llegar…y no supe hacer nada más que bloquearme.

Pánico.

Crash!

Abro los ojos,

Sangre.

Niños al suelo.

Sin diente.

Pensamientos que no pueden parar.

Sin sentir el dolor.

Sin entender.

Sin poder.

Con vida.

 

Life in water Lady Dalyz

Water lives inside and around us

When more means nothing…and nothing is worse

Bird Lady Dalyz

You only need one leg to stand

This feeling of abandonment is still here, rooted in my soul.

I feel alone, empty. No matter what I do to help myself, I can’t seem to make it stop.

I can be surrounded by all my loved ones, but still be missing you tremendously.

Pretending that I’m strong enough, that I don’t need your approval, or your love…

It costs me so much effort and energy to protect myself from you, and the thought of you.

I love you with every fiber of my body, and yet that isn’t enough.

You don’t see me.

You don’t hear me.

You don’t care.

I crave your attention, even though I have no right to do so.

I expect you to show me love, when you literally have no obligation to me.

I thought I was an important part of your life, when clearly, I’m not.

You didn’t choose me, you chose her…I just came along with it.

The sad truth is that I miss you, but most of it, what you represent to me:

Unconditional love that I never had from the man that should have given it to me, but never did.

Trust & Issues

My heart has lead me to painful memories.
My brain has planned failures and sabotages.
Delusions of my vision, materializing the impossible.
Heard voices that wouldn’t allow me to move, or breath.
People I’ve loved had abused me, mentally and physically.
I’ve been so paranoid that I wouldn’t come out from under my sheets.
I’ve trusted people that only wanted to use me.
I tried to kill myself.
I’ve wished I was dead.
I can’t trust myself.

Now, my love…How can I trust you?

Eye Lady Dalyz

Eye in love

Chemistry and intimacy

Looking deeply into your eyes, never a break until the volcano erupts in that disastrous lava that we crave, becoming greedy and shameless.
I feel the tenderness of your lips, tongue, on my weakest spots…Bermuda triangles with coordinates that you’ve learned to read and navigate, exciting me, making me what I hate to be: human and vulnerable.
 
You’ve managed to put me against myself: daring to fail.                    

Lady Dalyz

Lady Dalyz – ph. Andrea Colombo

This is our field, and as such, strategy is a must:

The war of love against pleasure.
 
One road to purity, unity, and humanity, but also the gates of an unperfected hell, where cowardness and shame expect me.
Tired, weak, shaking… I’ll still continue till my last breath.

A pleasure that will be lost in the silence of these walls that I’ve built and broken so many times before.

The pain caused by the battle is satisfaction, achievement, and addiction that it’s hard to get rid of because…
It never feels so good to lose power and control.

Thunders during the storm.

To the point Lady Dalyz

To the point

This is definitely the biggest raindrop I’ve ever felt, seen, and the wind?! So strong…

It is a good day: the day that I decide to get rid of you. Forever.
 
 

I’ll miss you…for a few days…and then it’s over.

The decision to love myself came late, whatever that is, late, too late for me. I know better.

For years you’ve been my friend, my air, my rest and my secure place.

Yeah, I’ll miss you for sure…but you’re killing me.

For years all I wanted was to be with you.

Now I know that I’ll be happier without you, richer, healthy from your poison and your lies of false support.

I don’t hate you, on the contrary…but I chose to love myself more.

We’ll part ways with a celebration…after that never again.

The pianist of our bodies.

I want to love you the way that the pianist loves the touch and sound of the notes;make love to you with my eyes closed, just as we enjoy every sensation while feeling your fingers touching my hidden keys.

Laugh with you as our bodies touch in this perfect dance, and feel the pain on my fingertips but still be willing to never want to stop or give up, until the concert is over.

After all those feelings of pleasure…bow down, exit and leave you wanting to come back for more.

 
 
Elfy Lady Dalyz

Being the King