Delusional

The pursue of love
From one disappointment the next
Looking for pleasure and inspiration
Behind a moment of fake happiness
I <3 U Lady Dalyz

I<3 U

 
Save me
From myself
 
Save me
From these tears of pain
 
Cause once I’m alone in my bed
It falls hard like a hailstorm
And I think to myself
Is it worth it
 
Save me
From my thoughts
 
Save me
From my fears
 
 
Self-love is the key
To get out of these bad trips
Fulfillment comes from within
And satisfies all needs

Zero empatia

Lady Dalyz freedom

Lady Dalyz

Amore senza comprensione

Annulla i miei dolori
Sventrami e liberami l’anima

Con le tue parole
Distruggi quest’incantesimo

Realizza questa fantasia
O la mia vita sarà finita

In attesa del domani
Dopo tantissimi anni

Affronto il tabù
Che m’hai dato tu

E non capisci il mio dolore
Non vuoi vedere dentro questo cuore

Stanco e addolorato
Che tanto per te ha pianto

E per nulla

How dare you

I will show you

My unspoken words

 

I will touch your soul

One look is all i need

 

Ignoring my pain

Hating on my loving

 

Walking away

Despite it all

 

I care

Enough to ignore the pain

 

How can i trust you with my emotions

When you constantly give and take your love?

 

The only thing that’s constant is your insecurities

The revenge that you throw on me

 

No mistakes admitted

It ain’t real

 

This ain’t love

Time to go

 

Restless

What to do?

How do I get rid of this feeling?

Lady Dalyz Jennifer Alvarez

looking at you 

 
My soul can’t breath,
I’m trapped in my own brain.
 
Search,
Feel,
Run.
 
Go back,
Analize,
Evaluate.
 
How to act?
How do I help myself?
 
My mind can’t rest,
My body is shaken.
 
Think,
Trust,
Allow.
 
Release,
Forgive,
Survive.

Beware for Growth

Lady dalyz Jennifer Alvarez

Ph. Cherry Kaur

Rhymes,
that disappear like lies.

In your eyes,
My reflection.

The evaluation,
A heart to heart.

What’s on your mind?

Scars,
Hurtful marks.

Shinning stars,
From a distant past.

I see it.
I feel it.
But that’s not real any more.

Encore.

Where was I in 2020?

What a difficult, yet wonderful, year that this has been for me: This year has broke me mentally, emotionally, financially and physically.

Yet here I stand, stronger than ever, cause I survived. I’m proud of myself. It might not seem like I did much, but these mini goals mean a lot to me.

I’ve successfully completed phase 2 of therapy and I actually feel that I’m a better person because of it.

I feel that I’m more able to recognize my Ups&Downs, and I’m able to deal with my emotions better than before.

Now on with the future: phase 3 of therapy, here I come!

I haven’t been very active with writing this year, sorry for that, I miss it too.

When I did though, mostly I appeared in books:

OM TE GROEIEN ZONDER JOU https://www.heimdall-poezie.nl/catalogus/weekvdpoezie2020/

OM GELIEFD TE ZIJN (from 11min on) https://www.heimdall-poezie.nl/catalogus/corona/

VRIJHEID https://www.heimdall-poezie.nl/catalogus/vruchten-van-vrijheid/

Yes, all of this in Dutch. After 5 years of being in this country, I finally started professionally writing in Dutch! =)

Then BLM came…and yes, I came out of my shell once more:

Black lives matter BLM Lady Dalyz Quote

There’s no “R.I.P” without justice & equality

https://www.dafneyasmin.com/post/social-anxiety-and-isolation

Have

dog Lady Dalyz Ph

Gabber

Life…vibrant.

flowing, echoing.

 

Inside.

The rush, my heart.

 

Air.

Freeing my words.

My failed successes

Yeah…sounds weird, but it’s true!

I didn’t win the contest, but hey, I was seen and appreciated for my work. Sounds like a win for me!

For the world bipolar day I wrote my first Dutch pieces (february 2019):

HOE GAAT HET? +-…EN JIJ?

Ik voel het meteen als het op komt…

Een seconde was het zomer, nu herfst.

Stemmingswisselingen komen, zo abrupt, en nu…?

Ik heb geen tijd om dit te voelen, ik moet doorgaan…maar waartoe?

Switch, swoof…

Zoals seizoenen ben ik nu ook verandert.

Ik hou ervan en haat het: het is mooi om te voelen, maar zo zwaar voor mij.

Hoe gaat het, vragen ze me…moeilijke antwoord moet ik zeggen.

Plus Minus…maar begrijpen ze me?

Ik voel me wind, ik voel me aarde…soms word ik vuur, en als het goed gaat, word ik water.

Stil…goed ademen.

Ik ben een mens zoals jij, dat alles voelt en is.

Zo…hoe voel je vandaag?

PLUSMINUS

Boven en beneden, zo zijn wij, zoals een hartslag.

Het begint klein en dan op eens kunnen wij vliegen, ver van de realiteit, buiten deze wereld.

Maar tegen welke prijs?

Alles dat naar boven gaat, moet ook vallen.

Leven stopt om te voelen.

Ja, die hartslag zijn wij en onze liefde voor het leven en elkaar.

  • The first one represents the arrival of depression after being manic. How the mood swings affect my life and how I just have to accept and face it.
  • The second one is how I see bipolar people. I’m going to get this tattooed XD

I hope you enjoy them as much as I did. Merry Christmas!

P.S. It’s imperative to follow your own path. Welcome 2020 with open arms.

Snowy bridge Lady Dalyz

bridge after the snow

Accidentes y vidas

Te vi llegar…y no supe hacer nada más que bloquearme.

Pánico.

Crash!

Abro los ojos,

Sangre.

Niños al suelo.

Sin diente.

Pensamientos que no pueden parar.

Sin sentir el dolor.

Sin entender.

Sin poder.

Con vida.

 

Life in water Lady Dalyz

Water lives inside and around us

On the road again…last one of 2019.

2/11/2019…

I felt so courageous this day!

I had an idea of what I wanted to do, of course, but since I always change my mind…I did!

I was so nervous and vulnerable, specially while singing, oh my God!

The amazing improvisation of Palmyre Collin (the dancer) was just the icing on the cake!

I hope that you can enjoy it as much as I did.

  1. When more means nothing…and nothing is worse;
  2. Accidentes y vidas;
  3. The sun that gives me life.

Poezie op het spoor Lady Dalyz

Poëzie op het spoor